I haven’t blogged in ages. I’ve been trying to keep up with all my classes (taking 16 credit hours is a much heavier load than I anticipated!) and I’ve learned some truths about myself this semester. As much as I wanted to love the Digital Photography program, it just wasn't right for me and after meeting with advisors, I have switched to the Office and Project Management program. I love photography and assumed that love would translate into a new career path. Trying to learn Photoshop and Dreamweaver was an exercise in futility for me - it was like learning a foreign language without a guide. Between having to purchase additional expensive equipment and hating the technical aspects of photography, it was becoming a dreaded job, not a passion, and I don't want to hate something I love.
I need to acknowledge that I am very good with office and administrative work. I am very competent at organizing and event management, so I am concentrating on enhancing my current skills to get a job that will fit my skills and talents. One of the classes that has been surprisingly difficult is my Writing class. I’ve always loved to write and haven’t ever had a difficult time putting my thoughts down. This class was all about making x = y thesis statements and writing about a “value”. We had to evaluate other classmates written assignments. Apparently, I’m too “verbose and wordy”. Talk about taking the fun out of writing. I just submitted my final paper for writing and am back to blog writing, where hopefully, I won’t be criticized for my writing techniques, style and lack of “value”.
Speaking of not being good enough…why is it that we (speaking mostly to women) find ourselves always trying to measure up to something that is often unattainable? One of my favorite blogs belongs to author, scrapbooker and artist, Ali Edwards. Today she wrote “You are Worthy: You are Enough”, which is the subject of a new DVD by Dr. Brene Brown, entitled “The Hustle for Worthiness”. Why do we feel we have to justify ourselves? Dr. Brene writes:
“Wholehearted living is about engaging in our lives from a place of worthiness. It means cultivating the courage, compassion, and connection to wake up in the morning and think, No matter what gets done and how much is left undone; I am enough. It’s going to bed at night thinking, Yes, I am imperfect and vulnerable and sometimes afraid, but that doesn’t change the truth that I am worthy of love and belonging.”
Have you ever felt that way? I believe so much that God created each of us in His image and He loves us just the way we are…so why do we not love ourselves? I am struggling with that very issue…
· I am overweight
· I don’t have a job
· My daughter is having eating issues, what can I do to fix it?
So just for today, I want to embrace the idea that “I am worthy now”. Check out Dr. Brene’s blog and join me in acknowledging and believing in your worthiness.
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